sur·ren·der
səˈrendər/
verb
- 1.c
ease resistance to an enemy or opponent and submit to their authority."over 140 rebels surrendered to the authorities"synonyms: capitulate, give in, give (oneself) up, give way, yield, concede (defeat),submit, climb down, back down, cave in, relent, crumble; More
noun
- 1.the action of surrendering.
synonyms: capitulation, submission, yielding, succumbing,
Such a simple word at first look and yet such a complex one. last week I had the opportunity to take a Walk in a park in North London, while walking I wanted to have a chat with God about the upper coming year for 2014. I usually ask God for a word that I can focus on and seek His wisdom and favour, usually it takes a while. After a while like a magical wand was waved over my mind or shall I say the Holy spirit impressed on my heart Surrender... I chuckled and said 'God can it be that simple' after a couple of days I would remember that I asked God for a word for this year and Surrender still came up.
Surrender such a big word for I defiantly have issues I am naturally inquisitive and that can often lead me to stubbornly submit to things, I have don't like the idea of yielding my planning and dreaming, relinquishing control is an issue of mine. And while I admit this now before this word came into my heart, I thought I had progressed and I still think so but I know my Father and when He places a word on His Daughters heart its usually because he wants me to gain strength from Him, He wants me to overcome, He wants me to mature, gain new depth to what He wants for my life.
God is so amazing, he can capture with one word, I keep on thinking about Surrender what it will do to my life and my outlook, how this year of surrender is new territory. I often think of myself as my friend calls me a "Wild Pony" and In many ways she is right, I like to roam, feel the most free trotting around the ranch solo. A pony if its wild needs to be broken , eeekkkk!!! can we stop here broken sounds painful to me and I don't like pain. I mean I am the one that yelps anytime she get a boo boo or a paper cut . back to what I was saying - When a Pony is being lets use the word trained needs to its bad habits in turn replaced with good ones, boundaries need to be set for where a pony can roam and in essence what use to bring it freedom most likely gave it death and so a whole new transformation has to happen. I know, I am running with the pony theme a bit to much but you get the gist. Surrender or I shall I say Surrounding with everything in me makes me squeal. I know why and I am going to try and be as transparent and honest as possible because it will require something that will cost me, something I know and believe I don't have and because of that I know that this most be a God thing. God is never settled with things that he is making anew and for that I am grateful.
Surrender ? so what does that mean for me well I think it means that I need to relinquish control, submit, allow God to do what He does best being Him.
So I am saying it here and I am saying it in faith that God will help me in all these areas to surrender.
I surrender :
Family
Friends
Work
Mission
Finance
Passion
Purpose
Choices to You, believing that you are making this a goal for me this year but ultimately for my life.
You know whats amazing about a Wild Pony that has been trained, it no more a pony or wild it becomes a horse.. usually the trainer will tell you that the beauty of the horse once grown is the fact the wildness is used at it full potential no longer is it unfocused or wondering but its drive, passion, beauty is now on display not hidden for the greater good. I think I don't mind going through this adventure if I come out on the other side with God and a bit more character and maturity in my spiritual bank.
My prayer for me as well as you is this :
Although frightened, uncomfortable and not sure what's next that You Oh God is good, wise, holy that everything that has happened or will happen is in your hands and so are your children. Thank You Father for allowing us to grow and mature, I pray we would be less apprehensive today then yesterday and that Your will would capture our attention and our passion. May Your Kingdom be glorified and may You Show us favour in 2014 to do what you have asked and go beyond the minimum and go for it.
