Prayer and Beauty

I pray everyday, not to boast I think its something God has placed in my DNA and I think everyone does in some way or form.

I pray for the day, my students, my team, family friends and for Gods glory to be shun from me and seen by me in what I do and what I see other do to please Our Father.

This week I could not imagine what God would do with my prayers, our prayers, towards our ministry and the students we interact with.

We were so blessed to have spiritual leaders that are over us and apart of our team to really bring forth a great ideas. Our current one is 24hrs prayer for our students before our big student weekend.  Every church puts on a student weekend at one point, especially when they have more then 2 students in there youth group but our hope is to see our students lives changed from ok, to I want more of Him.  Our youth group is at the budding stages, we have many students coming but not many participating our even real engaging with the Word or others. I have seen over the past couple of months our students jump at the chance to serve, its in there hearts to give and create compassion but our students like many have battles to fight, chains to break from and demons to slay.

We have stepped out in our calling to pray for our students for 24 days, 24 hours a day and its getting me, the team, the body excited. I can't wait to see what God has in store for our students.

As well as working with our youth group, Pais Project is all about bridging the gap between the local Church and the school reaching students who might not even have or receive an opportunity to come to church or connect with other believers . We work in a local school as volunteers helping in many different capacity: office aids, Lunch room supervisors, teachers aids etc..

We have been blessed to work with the special needs department and even prayed for the director of the department. Our relationship with the special needs teachers and aids have allowed us this week to bless the special needs girls in particular  with Manicures. They loved it many girls could pick from a variety of colours and although it was hard for many of them to stay still, did so with a look of great easy.

It was a true experience, while I was painting the nails of a few girls I stroke up a few conversations with Melissa, Christine, Stella as they looked at me with expression of happiness in those precious moments. I new and could see Gods beauty in these girls faces and as I casual started to sing praises of over them and there cute faces. I knew that for many of the girls , they had not heard that they were beautiful and I knew it with an urge from my spirit to just speak words of life and encourage over them.  God Presences was never void in the school or in the special needs class room it was just unrecognized and for the time we were in there I was able to see that as clear as day.

We were able to then assist our Seniors in Peer-Mediation (students guiding students to resolve conflict)...We were seeking serves opportunities and the head counselor brought this to our attention, none of the teachers wanted to give up there free periods (where they deal with admin etc..) and we stepped forward with smiles on our faces and a hunger to serve the students aid the student body.

HOW EXCITING IS THAT WE GET TO ADVISE, ASSIT, GUIDE STUDENTS IN MEDIATION AND THUS MENTORING SENIORS ON HOW TO DEAL WITH CONFLICT FROM A CHRISTIAN PERSPECTIVE!!! can you imagine how many students are going to be effected by this program, how we can use Gods word to director them in pouring wisdom into students lives, there own lives. God word does not return void and that is a promise,. Its so Crazy amazing at how and what God at work in..

We even started to see this opportunity open up more, when one of the senior mediators opened up about his past and family, friends. We have  students who want us to be hard and desire some true good input and  advise, its really blows me away at what we are able to do and how we can impact the seniors.
and that was just this week, what will happen for the rest of the semester. I think God is wanting to amaze, shock His children more and more.

I pray all the time its something I do naturally, I think God put it in my DNA but now I pray not only for the things I have always prayed for but things like ceasing God arisen opportunities, to see and appreciate His Beauty and to never forget where it all starts and begins with Him.

Roadtrip

Road-trip are awesome , if you plan it right some amazing things can happen but with all things, there often a few disasters on the way. This time on my little adventure there weren't any disasters as such just mishaps like forgetting a mobile phone, getting lost or packing a luggage way to big for a hatchback car. These little hiccups, were bumps in the road but all in all they made the road trip lovely.

A couple of friends and I decided we need to get out of town and have a little fun and so with a email or two to a local church we scoured a host home for us cash strapped missionaries and headed towards Kanasa our aim the onething Conference by International house of prayer aka IHOP. The conference is based around prayer and aimed for young adults but all are welcome. My friends and I all listen to the live prayer sessions they streams all year round, we all have a heart for intercession. We were just set and excited to go.

I can not tell you how excited and amazed I was at first how my heart sung, seeing all these people who were all about more then onething: Jesus returning, Prayer, People being saved and healed. It blew me away and placed wind in my sails...people were encouraging and there were times for people to pray over each other and the speakers spoke about His love for us and what we need to do to share it and much more but what struck me most was the amazing passion for Jesus as BRIDEGROOM.

I had heard it mentioned, but I had never heard it quite the same way. its not about him being are lovers, boyfriends chum but looking at Jesus as the bridegroom and us as the Bride (church), how he love us, how we should be in a state of yearning for Him. It was new different, good and very real to me.  His our Bridegroom, Our Judge , Our King and that was just more then words to me, it was His character explained in a fresh way to me.

I am thankful for road-trips it gives us time to talk with people, unpack some stuff you felt or learnt on your adventure, it was great because everyday on the way back to the host home we were able to talk and unpack some stuff and it was just another great thing about fellowship, the week flew by and I found myself being in awe of God and wanting to pray and praise him, I would find myself in the 24 hr prayer room seeking God and being filled by Him, through those times I heard God speak about not allowing my feeling or my circumstance dictate to me who I am and the things He says I am. Its the things he has always said that I never spent time to stop and listen to hear.... whilst we brought in the new year at the conference, I knew this was not the end of what God wanted to show me about Himself as the Bridegroom, King, Judge.

So what is God telling you about His character, I would say my friends, ask Him and when he answer commit to really looking deep into his heart, with His word, prayer time with Him.

I am thankful .....

11) Skype Chats
12) Homemade Fudge
13) Little brothers
14) Smell of books
15) Kindness of strangers
16) Childhood memories
17) God voice
18) Wise women
19) Lunar eclipse
20) Planning road trips

Starting

Lord Thank you!!!

So I am starting today, its not monday but my friend Yarnbelle, suggested that I needed to express my love for the one who give me everything from above...

1) The gift of salvation
2) The Word of God
3) Family from all different backgrounds, countries
4) Home cooked meals with unusual flavors
5) Cold Mornings
6) Dogs with silly habits
7) A team that laughs together
8) Friends who are more then sisters
9)  A grandmother that Prays
10)  Life to serve

Cracking And The Breaking

How unusual is it that in somethings cracking and breaking is something to be desired. like vintage jackets, a fashionable bag, old books, all of these things conjure in me attractiveness but I wonder in a person not so attractive or is it?  I imagine that if objects could feel they would consider this process as painful, damaging and hurtful....


I often think that life is a series of moments that often pass us by... as humans we can forget that our Creator uses all that we take as moments for his ultimate purpose.  But what about the pain of life that brings breaking, what about the dryness that comes that also brings cracking.


What happens when this combines into a season in Ones life, do we fold our cards and split or do we stand in the mist of it all and wait. 


"The Lord will fight for you, you need alone to be still"   Exodus 14:14 


Funny, that the cracking and breaking of land is ideal good and used for vineyards that actually when it looks quite distraught there is great richness to the soil. isn't it God who tells us again and again, in His word, In our inner most being that He will use whatever He wants to glorify Himself, that he will use the broken, the weak, the cracking for His kingdom.


I do not have the answers, I don't know where God is leading me in this season,  I hope while this cracking, breaking, dryness in my walk is going on, I have the heart to carry on and live a life pleasing to Him. Towards the One that loves me with a fiery love...

What Do I Do?

I want to be honest, it is a very lonely place doing what I do. its lonely because I forget who I am serving, its lonely because I look at things from people at home and I am not there anymore., It is lonely and the reason why I feel this way its the time of the year. Thanksgiving is coming and Christmas soon after that. I feel this way because for three years I haven't been able to be with my own family, in my own bed with my OWN.....


It seems to be a running theme with me lately. I wonder what shall I do? I can walk around with the woe is me attitude or I can make a choice. I need to make a choice to trust Him even through I have no clue of why or what is going on.....


I went to a conference retreat thing with Pais last week and I was reminded of a word called Kavanah it means the Gods presence and purpose in actions that we have. Its Hebraic, the jewish people strive to allow God in every action, task,  choice we make..... I don't know what happened but it stroke a cord with me. Have I been living a life of no kavanah? the answer was not a pretty one. 


My question is have you been living a life with out thinking of God's presence and purpose?


I think many of us Christ followers live a life that seems pleasing to Him but once again we use our perspective..God is asking me you seek my thoughts, my wisdoms, my knowledge not your own and you will live a true life..






What Do I do? well I keep on trying, I keep on seek Him and along the way I will trip and fail but I should still keep on going, because to not try is to not live a life that my Fahter God died for..

A delicate line for words

Two months notice, two weeks planing, prepping many rewrites and silly drafts and today its here already....


  I refuse to be nervous or get jumbled, I want to do this well. I keep on asking God to help me and I feel quite safe up on stage but in the back of my mind is I want this to be perfect. It my share stubbornness and totally God's grace that is pushing my anxiety down and away from me. 


This was my first official day that I preached/taught  today, my topic the Romans road week 9 on Romans 12.


The verse's I to camp on were simple:
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. ²Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."


After so many thoughts it was simple, I was not in control. I tried but it was ultimately Gods project not my own. 


No one tells you that God words are delicate or that using them to teach a person can be so overwhelming. I thought it was simple people would base the sermon on a topic or on a series, maybe unpack a Bible chapter but I never thought that it would be a delicate line of words from page to mind, to heart to page and then spoken. 


....I shared my testimony about how God renewed my mind, how he transformed me and instead of trying to fit into the world's small agenda, I was part of God's ultimate Plan.  I had all these great words, analogies but that wasn't what was used. No it was God's powerful delicate line of words that came forth and i hope pierce the heart of this young flock of lambs. Not me and my pretty empty words or my life story, No, nope it was How God changed me, remolded me, renewed me that did. It was the fact that this word of God that we often down play and cut up into baby pieces for our young people, this word that we forget is so simple, complex, delicate, hard and strong but active that is what did it, tonight. I am in awe that my God, our God can do that, to me while am teaching others about His words, he was teaching me once again....


I didn't feel overjoyed, I didn't feel sad I felt, just so still and in that I place, it was just fine. I can't tell you if I enjoyed it or if I was an amazing speak but am glad I did it, I am glad my students were able to unpack and discuss the word together and I am glad I took the challenge even through at times I was afraid.


A delicate line for words is just as strong and powerful then anything, we ever knew and although I taught tonight, I learnt something that Gods word is more then ink on paper, its more then my past experience with His words, its current, ever present ready to reveal more of His kinds, character essence and nature. What's truly amazing is its even more so the second time you rediscover it.