Another story of God Moving with our students..

I always try and bring students into my life, even when for some reason they may feel overwhelmed or think it totally random. So this is just a little insight to what happened when I invite a student to come along with me to a community gathering.


my week was totally crazy but I thought I need to make a big effort in attending study. So I attend on a bi-weekly basis to this particular  community group that studies the word together every week and quite a few of our students go to this group, to hang out and to hear what God is saying...

I thought while I was hanging with my student in the afternoon, that she could come with me and  what an evening, first of she was on her phone and although I was going to tell her not to God said 'wait' and  then when we started to look at the bible I decided to share my bible with her.  She looked at me in shock and said I can't read the bible and I was double shocked, God said "you needed help once too, be gentle".... you this particular student had been baptized the week before and a month before that had made a commitment to the Lord at the Sliver Ring Thing (purety commitment for saving herself for marriage), you see it was the fact that this student did all these things that shocked me but in that moment it was clear this student was leaning forward to God but she had no one leading her closer in heart and deed, it was just the deed....It was a shock but a encouragement, as God confirmed the reason why I do what I do but also why I was in San Antonio for students like this bright lovely girl. 

Later on: 

A lady that the host of the study knew stepped forward in desperate need for prayer. This woman was asking God for help and wanted to figure out how she could forgive herself, she felt like she could never be forgiven or loved by Him, once the prayer was over I looked over at my student who God lead me to invite and I could tell she was moved but something had changed. You see the faith she was doing all these christ like acts for was now become very really.

The night was wrapping up and my student heading for the door, I wanted to speak to her before she left and the conversations was great, I challenged her to not let this night pass by and if she wanted to be serious about the word we could get together and figure the Word of God out. She was very ready to take the next step...

Thank you God, That I have no clue what works you have in store for us, that you can take a simple invitation to open the doors to someone heart. Bless my student, help me to lead her and may all of take the chance again and again to invite people into your kingdom whether its inviting someone to bible study or buying someone a soda...helps Lord to do that and more.

More then I Could Have Asked For

Yesterday I woke up at 6 am to get ready and meet with some of my student before school for some lovely Mexican style breakfast. it so happened that this very day, all my boss from Pais the ministry, I work with... were coming for a visit, I knew this day was going to be quite an eventful at least at breakfast any way.

 Note to self: Why do we forget that God desire so much to be part of everything we do, I forget this clear truth more then I would like even through I work on the mission field and on another random insight of my mind thought:

I wonder if the people in the bible knew that the days that seemed a little be less then ordinary were actually going to be woven into this amazing God story.

We had ten students show up and it was great to see church kids, none church kids mix and chat laugh and relax with one another and as I looked across the table of the many young face that we so desperately want to show the kingdom to...it hit me , we are sharing the kingdom right now, with love, joy and fellowship and I knew that God was with us in that moment with out kids before school on this warm San Antonio morning.

The day continued back at the church and it was great seeing our boss hear our morning devotional and once it ended, we had our assessment and it wasn't what I thought it would be it was a word of encouragement. We as the Judson team have not been able to get into the Judson High school due to complications of the school district and tho we have tried to get the wheels turning it hasn't worked for us. As they left, we prayed together, within that pray was just a plea to God to let us in....

We decided with our youth pastor to go to the school that very day to see if we could somehow make an effort to at least get on the volunteer list of the school. I went with our youth pastor  but could not go in due to the lack of id and so while I waited for a while and prayed, my team decided to also leave the office and pray on site while our youth pastor was in the school. I really felt God wanted me to press into  prayer while the meeting was going on and after two hours of waiting,  he came out. We went to meet the team and he told us this...

" Next week monday we will be having a private orientation on the campus that will help us become volunteers at the school" not only that but the head councillor was so excited to have people who would be able to  help serve the school that she told our youth pastor Taylor that we could help tutoring, lunch and after school clubs....

It was more then I could ever ask for or pray for, it was totally God ordained and I was just speechless. I had been sick for weeks and just a little low, hopeful but still low in my body and mind and God is like the time is now.

I am so in awe of how God works and I am so thankful that we His children get to see this everyday. How crazy is that He has chosen us to know him and that he invited us to share in his amazing God woven story.

I am reminded that he desire us to take this invitation and run with it and I love that its never to later to do so, never to late at all to join His story

Scared To Be Broken

I had devotional with my team like I usually do every morning, I had felt quite ill the night before and to be honest I don't think I tried hard enough thorough the sneezing and coughing to study Mark 8 the way I usually do.  To be clear I was frustrated, I had used my usually source but nothing. Through it all I was asking God to help me.  Well we had an amazing discussion about Mark 8 but through this I discovered a verse God had point out to me a few months back. 


This totally spoke to me through the group study 


'Do not be afraid little flock, for your father has been pleased to give you the kingdom' 
We spoke about brokenness and it was hard to hear, because one of my team member asked me, why are you scared to be broken and I said it, clear but still not believing it from my month to be broken is to be uncontrolled and unaware of the out come, I am scared I told her...


you see while we were studying Mark 8 it speaks about yeast, that is a fungi that infects and multiplies but the thing is can come within us in disguise like strength and through our worship today I broke down before the Lord. 


My friend sung a song she had written which was so true to my heart : "I have been saying for a while more of me God less or you' 
I didn't want to worship 
"I have been saying more of me less of you God"
 I started crying, 
"More of me God less of you" I BROKE, 
I am sorry, lord I am sorry I stood there not know what to do 
I cried and cried and when I thought there was nothing left, I cried more.....more because my heart was cold and hard and cried for thinking like I knew best and cried just because I was undone by Him and His goodness and persistent love. 


I don't have the answer but I know God wants us broken before Him, broken from all the things we have placed upon ourselves and so much more...... even through our rebillion, hardness God say this to us and lead us no matter what:


Hosea 11:4 I led them with cords of human kindness and I tied them with love, I lifted the yoke from there neck and bent down to feed them 


I don't know what happened or how it did. maybe it unconfessed sin, divided heart or just classic fear but it happened.  The idea that brokenness equities itself with weakness, crept into my heart at very young age and has come and gone for quite sometime. Its made itself at home in my heart, it happens when I don't listen or when I doubt what God has claimed to be true or when I fear that I may make a fool of myself.  That just to name a few. I am  being honest its hard being who we are not because God makes it hard but we make it hard for ourselves, to obey and submit our lives to him in every moment we have.....


 I will always have to learn that Brokenness does not lend itself to weakness but a unique and promising strength that comes from the father that has created us. This incredible strength contradicts, breaks and extinguish all kinds of man made wisdom and logic.  It is a beauty that many do not chase after but one that is bestowed upon the person,  it at its best is God beauty and glory refined in a unworthy vessel.

Psalm 51: 17 the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; 
       a broken and contrite heart.....
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I am not scared of brokenness now , I hope that I look for weakness in me, I hope where I need to be broken will be broken by our Father , I am so glad for this promise in 2  that reminds me :


But He said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 


I know that this is not over but I hope that the next time I fear to break, I will be overcome by His glory and strength.