Sunday, November 7, 2010

A delicate line for words

Two months notice, two weeks planing, prepping many rewrites and silly drafts and today its here already....


  I refuse to be nervous or get jumbled, I want to do this well. I keep on asking God to help me and I feel quite safe up on stage but in the back of my mind is I want this to be perfect. It my share stubbornness and totally God's grace that is pushing my anxiety down and away from me. 


This was my first official day that I preached/taught  today, my topic the Romans road week 9 on Romans 12.


The verse's I to camp on were simple:
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. 2Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."


After so many thoughts it was simple, I was not in control. I tried but it was ultimately Gods project not my own. 


No one tells you that God words are delicate or that using them to teach a person can be so overwhelming. I thought it was simple people would base the sermon on a topic or on a series, maybe unpack a Bible chapter but I never thought that it would be a delicate line of words from page to mind, to heart to page and then spoken. 


....I shared my testimony about how God renewed my mind, how he transformed me and instead of trying to fit into the world's small agenda, I was part of God's ultimate Plan.  I had all these great words, analogies but that wasn't what was used. No it was God's powerful delicate line of words that came forth and i hope pierce the heart of this young flock of lambs. Not me and my pretty empty words or my life story, No, nope it was How God changed me, remolded me, renewed me that did. It was the fact that this word of God that we often down play and cut up into baby pieces for our young people, this word that we forget is so simple, complex, delicate, hard and strong but active that is what did it, tonight. I am in awe that my God, our God can do that, to me while am teaching others about His words, he was teaching me once again....


I didn't feel overjoyed, I didn't feel sad I felt, just so still and in that I place, it was just fine. I can't tell you if I enjoyed it or if I was an amazing speak but am glad I did it, I am glad my students were able to unpack and discuss the word together and I am glad I took the challenge even through at times I was afraid.


A delicate line for words is just as strong and powerful then anything, we ever knew and although I taught tonight, I learnt something that Gods word is more then ink on paper, its more then my past experience with His words, its current, ever present ready to reveal more of His kinds, character essence and nature. What's truly amazing is its even more so the second time you rediscover it.





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